Sunday, May 20, 2007
[*$iNgiNg .iN. cHoiR's .pa$$ioN*]...my blog's been stagnant. time is not on my side. it's not within my control. i can only work around it. in less than 10 days i'll be on my way to another part of the earth with CJ choir! it's exciting but the thought that time is indeed flying at rocket speed is really scaring me. i'm really looking forward for the trip but the trip also marks the end of my choir journey in CJ. truth be told, choir was one of the factors that made CJ a place to stay. choir has taught me many things. choir has gave me many intrinsic rewards. and i really love being in a choir. i really feel a sense of joy, fulfillment and satisfaction in choir. choir has been a big part of my life.
well, H1 is in less than 4 days time. GP is the day after H1. the stress is really getting to me and i'm really feeling it. it's really making me nervous about many things cos the trip is 4 days after GP. i have choir the day before the trip and also i have practical on the day i'm flying off. it's quite a rush for time. and time is not really something i handle and grapple well with. that's why i feel so stress. i know i can do it. but it's all the "what if's". the fear and all is really suffocating but i know that God is there. His gonna take care of it all. so no fear. yup.
well. my brother bought his laptop today and a new monitor for his dead and old one. and seriously, his new monitor is nice. i wanted to get a new digital camera today. the deal was good. but didn't in the end since the guy said that the price would stay for as long as i came back. so i'm goona wait and see. it's a pretty camera but well, you see, my parents spent a lot on the trip for me already. then plus my brother's laptop and monitor, i just couldn't buy the camera. yup. i'd feel ultra bad. so yar.
haha. my mom's birthday is this tuesday, and there's choir till 7. i guess i'll get the cake then bring it home after choir. so that we can celebrate for her. thank goodness it's a study day on wednesday. so yar.
i feel really tired lately. guess it's because i haven't really had a break. since school started. so my emotional and mental state is really expanded and stressed up. yup. well. i really hope that i won't fall sick cos i really can't afford to fall sick cos the trip really means a lot to me. and i really wanna sing for the trip. i really love singing. yup.
anyways, i'll try and not let this blog die. yup. haha. see ya guys around. and hello ernest didi!!!
love,
cheryn ...
posted at 5/20/2007 07:41:00 pm
